duniaku & cameraku

you're an idiot.

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 07:32:50 GMT

memang aku tak suka kau, asal?

alkaloids

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 19:52:40 GMT

excuse me, miss but are you jealous of my little miss muffet here? feeling a bit insecure, are we now? well clearly, you didn't know how news travel aye, miss? did you know your comment has spread to this little dullsville, we, students dearly call home? ahhh.. and excuse me, miss.. but i'm starting to un-fancy (oh yes, no such word but it will do) you.

so you may be miss very sweet looking and yes, i was attracted to you but what you said about my sister is appalling.

and hello sir, i don't quite fancy your girlfriend either. sorry but i ate a bitch for supper and hence..

thiiodothyronine

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:11:44 GMT

no, really.. honours or not?

or straight to masters? but relevant to work or not?

crazy/beautiful

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:13:23 GMT

honestly, you're the best i've ever had. waking up to you next to me is a gift every morning. you're my boyfriend, my bestfriend, my irritating "girlfriend". how can i not love you so much? we fought so much before we got together and now, from what i see, we're so much stronger than before. i really don't know what i'd do without you. and being with you, living with you for almost 9 months now, i know we can go thru all odds together. darling, you're my life. what happened before us has been buried deep deep beneath the ground we step on. what lies between us matters alot sayang. what lies before us is the future that we both are very unsure of. for now, i know i cannot lose you, i cannot afford to let you leave me. i love you so much and i thank Allah for letting us cross paths. may seem cliche but you are ze best boyfriend i've ever had. you're so understanding, you're fun, you're love, you're everything i need. i love you. i really do. happy 8years anni my dear! you are crazy and i am beautiful. HEH.

the moon glowed, so did you.

Tue, 26 May 2009 04:35:31 GMT

i am definitely growing out the phase where you blog almost everyday. nyeh. or i might be back when uni closes! hah!

so dear people. excuse me while i take my ultimate long leave for my exams BOOHOOOHOOO. pray harder on the 10th,16th and 17th okay? (: so nowwwww off to completing one bitch of assignment on SWAN-CANNING RIVER. river? chemistry? river?

and june is going to be tough for me because i've got to meet Jotun's President and tell him why he should employ end this year despite the recession.

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 16:21:34 GMT

i love you

the treacherous being.

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 07:47:39 GMT

i chanced upon reading something that flew out of my cupboard while cleaning out my closet. i found my blue free diary. the one i would write during my flights. funny how, i feel excited to go home and i would cry like crazy on flights back to perth. and the only antidote for crying on lonely plane flights is to sleep it off, cover your eyes with a eye mask. and wake up just in time for landing with a little bit of time to piss and wash that kopet face with swollen eyes from crying.

haha.

all in all, when you read back your old entries. it's amazing how destructive, how emotinally unstable i can get. NOT HEALTHY NOT HEALTHY.

what's even worst when i read back my old journal http://ladyxgreen.livejournal.com OH YES that's me. hahahaha so much for the anonymity.

thank you for destructing my life. i'm picking up my pieces again and honestly, i'm a happy treacherous human humbug now. HAHAH. oh love makes the world go round. if you seek amy!

shortlivedhappiness.

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 05:55:50 GMT

When you love someone - youll do anything
Youll do all the crazy things that you cant explain
Youll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

Youll deny the truth - believe a lie
Therell be times that youll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - youll feel it deep inside
And nothin else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you love someone...

When you love someone - youll sacrifice
Youd give it everything you got and you wont think twice
Youd risk it all - no matter what may come
When you love someone
Youll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

i really don't know what's going on with me now. i'm losing my sanity, i refuse to talk it out because really i'm afraid of appearing as a loser or a pemalas, rather. there's no sense of urgency running through my veins yet. all i want to live is a carefree life. but don't we all? don't we all want to lead simple life?

thing is i've come to realise happiness is short-lived.

and i believe people just refuse to talk to me now or confide in me. hence, i refuse to confide in people. so really, i'll just let myself sink into this state i am in til i get someone to want to talk to me. i don't know. but right now at this moment, i wished everything never happened. i wished nothing happened.

oh alright, disappear already.

ze events in a week.

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 11:13:55 GMT

ze bff's bf's bday party

ze rose garden

ze awesome rise against gig!

ze boring-est mambo

poor girl broke her heels ):

ze boyfriend i love most.
♥

it makes you wonder sometimes why things happen when they do.
i wouldn't trade anything else for what i've got now in life. dear Allah, thank you for everything you've given me in life. these little things i'll never could imagine having. thank you Allah. ♥

life's a maze and love's a riddle.

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 14:21:55 GMT

today is 'boys do PMS' day.
nonetheless, i still love you.

she makes me sane when the going gets tough
<3333333s you babe!

i was hynoptized.

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 18:54:13 GMT

it makes you wonder why things happen when they do.

i've got alot of things on my mind at the moment. i'm so muddled up, i can stare into oblivion for few minutes until someone snap me out of it. this paper chase everyone's after is just mad. urghhh, i'm hungry and i've just sent out a mass email to my group mates about monday project outline discussion which is due on wednesday morning and FYI, we haven't written a single thing on it when we have already started staining our skeletal muscle. oh damn. yikes.

it makes you wonder why things happen when they do.

this afternoon, i was verbally attacked by an aborigine. oh god damn! those motor mouth they've got, the awful body odour they carry. i sympathise these people. but god help those who help themselves. i wished they've helped themselves instead of verbally attacking people randomly. i pity the chinese dude who got told off for eating maggots with his rice. and i just got told off by looking at him. bahhhh. times like this, i feel like a small fry in australia. oh well, they are afterall the true australians, kan?

it makes you wonder why things happen when they do.

you know, after hafiz, i was positive i'll never find another. i was positive i will never fall in love again. and i told myself, i'll fool around with boys. (i just made myself sound like an awful tart). okay what i meant was ohwellyougetwhatimean. it makes you wonder why things happen when they do. i don't and i won't deny the fact that i'm in love (cheesy much!). but it makes you wonder; kenapa kita bertemu. as qouted by intanraihana from cerita sepi; "kenapa kita ditakdir bertemu kalau kita tidak ada jodoh?" ily dearest you.

anyways, it's dad's 48th birthday today. my dad's old. two more years to fifty.

o'plsss... i've rambled much.

magnified.

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 10:15:04 GMT

heratnor kassanuri, you're lame.

holyshit, i need to study, do my readings, do my research, work on my timeline, book microscopes. GOODBYE.

road less travelled.

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 17:44:33 GMT

i'll take this journey Allah has given me. i'll take a step at a time, embrace upon every opportunity i'm given. i'm in for the tough ride i'm in for. let's go! ya Allah, you're my only hope, my only strength. kuatkanlah iman ku, ya Allah. for i know, i'm in need for you every moment of everyday now.

week two

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 03:12:04 GMT

so here i am in bio library yet again after months of being an idiot.

so this sem, so hiccups please. so far, its moving smoothly as i want it to be. alhamdulilah.

life, aye.. so much drama. LOL.

He's just NOT that into you.

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 15:12:49 GMT

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.

Every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule.

But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs.

How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.

And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future.

Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

oh yes, i never gave up hope.

feb is endingg.

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 16:34:51 GMT

my feet are killing me killinggggggg me i tell you, killing me! and the heat in perth is disintegrating me into POOOF KOKOKRUNCH! (black and dark and fatty)

i need more antihistamine. one fucking small pill cost me $1. how sia! i take two per day. DIE LIAOZ.

hari kekasih ke?

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 19:27:05 GMT

happy valentines dearest beings. i've planned out a valentines day out with the girls and a boy later for a moonlight cinema at burswood. we're watching curious case of benjamin button. heh heh. so it's picnic cum movie. ahhh the joy. i'm baking little cupcakes later with little hearts and i'm bringing sandwiches i guess. prolly, tuna sandwiches. hahaha. or prolly pasta since i've got too many. hmmm that'd be awesome though.

you know i've typed out alot but hell, i deleted them when i had a sensible chat with ratnor. thanks dude. and congrats on your marriage proposal to jerine! now you're officially engaged mat-salleh style! loveyoumanymany!

what you get when you let your heart win.

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 10:02:35 GMT

no sir, well i dont wanna be the blame. not anymore. it's your turn, take a seat we're setting the final score. why do we like to hurt so much?! i cant decide you have made it harder just to go on. oh why? all the possibilities... well i was wrong

that's what you get when you let your heart win

i drowned out all my sense with the sound of it's beating.

i wonder how am i supposed to feel when you're not here cause i burned every bridge i ever built when you were here, i still try. still holding onto silly things, i never learn. OH WHY?!??! all the possibilites.. i'm sure you heard.

pain make your way to me and i've always be just so inviting. if i start to think straight, this heart will start a RIOT in me.

i can't trust myself with anything but this...

but it feels so good cause i got what i've wanted right now

ohmy it's feb!

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 08:11:05 GMT

work is crazy bcoz im a mad woman. i want more shifts. & i miss you dear boyfriend. come here quick with my presents and my mum's kuh tat please!

four more months to june. yeeeeeeeeeeeehaw!

..

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 02:16:02 GMT

Ujian adalah tarbiyah dari Allah
Apakah kita kan sabar ataupun sebaliknya
Kesenangan yang datang selepas kesusahan
Semuanya adalah nikmat dari tuhan

bleargh

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 15:25:48 GMT

i'm down with hayfever. i was having a massive headache after stepping out from lab work yesterday. and i had to work at makan2 after work. so i took nurofen. next thing you know i had swollen eyes ): and my breathing was cut off. i ran to the pharmacy opposite makan2 and he treated me. i got home feeling slightly better. i wanted to go to hospital but really, i didnt want to waste a hundred bucks on emergency doctor treatment.

i woke up this morning to an achy body and a high fever. i went down to uni medical center since its only $5 consultation fee eventhough i felt like fainiting. sucks to live alone in perth aye.

i'm diagnosed with hayfever and some flu viral thingy. my temperature shot up to 40 deg. my eyes are still swelled up. but i feel so much better. i'm on three days mc but heck, i'm still going to work tmr. both for my internship and makan2. boyfriend claims i overexert myself but nooo, i'm just too fucking weak for this weather. ):

i wished i had my mum here or the very least, the boyfriend. )':

2nd night in perth.

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 17:33:26 GMT

i just got back from work at 225am (perth time :P) i ended work at 1030pm but stayed on for the sake of slumdogmillionaire. we watched it on my workplace's projector with the sound systems on and aircon (yes, perth was 41.8deg today) and we had bubur with ginger chicken and ikan masin.

seriously, I RECOMMEND YOU ALL TO WATCH. fucking good lah sia! damnit im in love with the show!!

now i want this freaking novel. coz the movie's adapted from this book. SO SOMEONE PLEASE FOR MY 22ND BIRTHDAY, GET ME THIS. I'LL FUCKING LOVE YOU FOR ETERNITYYYYYYY.

other than that, work was good but i sweat like a maddog. SO FUCKING PANAS LAH THIS COUNTRY. and work was well, okay je lah. the moment i stepped into makan2, ajek laughed at me and said "TOO BAD YOU'RE IN PERTH. HAHAHAHA ENJOY THE WEATHER" damn that arsehole of a boss. hahaha.

so people at work say i've become much cerah AHAHAHAH. seee the weather in singapore makes me "fairer" WHAHAHAHAHAH. and raihana said i lost weight which is so the menipu ok. anyway, we did a prank on an excolleague who came to makan2 for dinner today, we cut a small soccer ball into half and cover it with egg and pretended it was 'nasi pattaya' and she happily ate it, and realised it was a ball underneath. hahahahahha. my colleagues are jokers. so now, if u perthlings nak order nasi pattaya, ada new order k. u can have nasi pattaya chicken, beef or BALL :D

okay i'm still hyped about slumdogmillionaire. hahaha. JAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!

):):):

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 19:13:49 GMT

dear Allah, i hate being where i am right now. i am already homesickk. i hate this place. i hate this place.

i just want someone to talk to, make me happy. tu aje. pleaseeeeeee.

tata SG!

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 17:09:58 GMT

I'M FUCKING WORKING IN MAKAN-MAKAN CAFE ON FRIDAY!(and i'm flying back on thurs, betul tak kasi chance ni org tua!)

oh wells, at least, gaji masuk uh nxt monday for this friday's pay. HUAHAHAA. well, goodbye now dear singapore, i'm going to miss you. i hate living in two different countries now!

but good news is I'M GOING TO START INTERNSHIP NEXT MONDAY! 5 WEEK INTERNSHIP! jadi lah. aku dah desperate nak duit uh.

to those i didnt get to meet, i'm awfully sorry yea. takecare now dear loved ones.

(un)happening.

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 16:34:05 GMT

i'm making my last few moments in singapore a very memorable one. i really don't want to go back to perth and start doing my internship. i want to forego but i don't want to miss out an opportunity like this. all for the sake of making my resume looking good. GAH.

honestly, i feel like a tourist in my country.

the fun doesn't stop here. i want to eat chicken rice with my ahpeks and nyonyas. and have kueh talam with my mats and minahs.

AH AKU TAK NAK BALIK ):

god, i love SG for the surprises you get for walking aimlessly!